retaking

for the first time i ever had this feeling of having to retake a module. i mean, how hard is it to get a F grade. as long as u have some rudimentary knowledge it should suffice, wouldn't it? nope. not for this certain module. yes. quantum mechanics.

the notations are horrendously abstract and numerous and the concepts hard to grasp. but honestly i din really put in effort until the very end so i can't say much. only that this was one module i couldn't handle with a last-ditch effort. i got the main thrust of the content and its applications by the exam, but screwed the 30% CA grade. by a lot.

if it had been a bell-curve system, i wouldn't have been too worried. but there're only 19 students this sem and the lecturer assured me that he would be all too glad to fail half the class if need be, only so that they won't suffer in higher-level modules. and that he was allowed to. benevolent, indeed.

shucks. oh wells. let's just study hard for my other modules. after this horrendous few weeks of focussing on such abstract and mind-wracking content, reading up on stuff like thermodynamics and physical chemistry will actually prove to be interesting; political science should be therapeutic. hehh.