the socio paper

i've been printing (note: not reading) the 2nd half readings of my Soci of Family module the past week. even though i've decided to S/U it, might as well make the grade secure enough to do so, i thought.  10/15% (overslept for one) for tutorial participation and a A for the 25% midterm doesn't justify a confirmed pass. and of course, i'd love to derive abit of satisfaction from doing more than required to pass. 

eve of SC paper:  haven't touched on the readings i printed yet. and my knowledge of the 1st half readings are as of during the midterms. ahh i'm so gg to suffer from focusing on my Physics mods! so i gave myself 2 choices for the next 24 hrs. 

1. focus on the 1st half - notes and readings. of course it'd be risky cos most of the exam material would likely be on the 2nd half. rmbr peilee once told me she managed to A a soci mod just by focusing on less than half of the material too. haha. 

2. just focus on the damn notes, get a good overview of the module in general and how all the chapters/ideas link up together, then memorise all main and sub pts. then utilising my common sense and general knowledge and command of english to smoke through the paper. 

i chose the latter.

so i went for the paper ardently hoping that the one compulsory qn and 2 out of 4 of the optional qns (4choose2) would NOT even refer to or ask me to analyse the ideas in ANY specific reading. cos i haven't even read most of them as u know.  

"Please turn over ur Qn paper and check that u have 2 printed pages" announced the lecturer. i complied reluctantly, albeit with a sense of anticipation. yessah! it was as i hoped. but the other 2 optional qns, as expected, could not even be attempted by the current me. who cares, though. haha. can do the ones that count can already. 

1st 2 qns were a breeze, doing outlines for ard 10 mins then finishing the essays in another 50. way before schedule. hmm 3rd qn - 2 instances where anticipatory socialisation are mentioned in the lectures; name them and describe the facets of family sociology they entail (or smth like that). 

i only rmbred 1. but oh wells, my 2nd one seemed quite a legitimate answer. and i've done quite well for the amount of effort i put in le. so i raised my hand just b4 the limit and left early. dun think i'd be able to improve on my answers even if i had dwelled in the exam hall for the next 15 mins anyways. one more paper down! 3 more to go. 

dead fish

my oldest friend. 

the one whose judgement i trust the most.

given he knows all abt most of my history and habits. 

and that we've shared all our joys and woes w/o restraint over the yrs.

he told me to drop the dead fish. 

changed man

after reaching home after jas' 21st, wormy dropped by to print some documents for his impending overseas trip. he's changed quite a bit since the breakup of 3 yrs. but i'd be surprised if he didn't. it really meant alot to him, and his considerable ego din allow for the fact that his gf no longer had any feelings for him. 

let's just say that guys handle breakups in different ways. a quick summary:

1. The guy initiated the breakup

a) Alpha-male - yeah! no more  residual obligations to anyone. so gg to find someone better as a keeper but 1st to have some fun with random pple in the meantime.

b) Average male - no pt continuing if there're no more feelings. time to move on and start knowing new pple. hope one of them is the one for me. it'll take time but eventually.

c) Loser male - yay i can finally spend time with my PSP and drama serials than occupy myself with such a complicated and troublesome entity. good riddance to bad rubbish. 

2. The girl initiated the breakup

a) Alpha-male - can't believe she dumped me. i doubt she'll ever find someone as good as me. so be it if she wants to be with that fat wuss friend of hers. but 1st to fornicate randomly to show that i'm the MAN. 

b) Average male - i'm sure a girl's decision is final but i'm still gg to do nice stuff so i can tell myself in the future i did my best. or maybe i should just move on. and wish her happiness.

c) Loser male - yay i can finally spend time with my PSP and drama serials than occupy myself with such a complicated and troublesome entity. good riddance to bad rubbish. 

haha ok it's not exactly true but it has an element of truth in it. and let's just say that i'm not gg to divulge all that transpired in this blog, ever. some stuff is too personal, and it wouldn't reflect well on all parties involved. 

unproductive sat

only reached home ard 4am after gg out the prev day on fri. haven't taken a nightrider for god knows how long. it's cheaper, no doubt, but it really takes a hell long time to reach home. and i've long since lost the ability to simply sleep on the bus. 

was thinking of napping till 6am, then working all the way till the b-day party where i'll be quite zombie-fied but so as to maximise study time. but then my trusty phone alarm screwed up again and i woke at abt 1pm. the look of dismay when i saw the time on the wall clock. priceless. 

due to certain events transpiring, met sokie outside the country club instead of gg tog by train or even mtg the flaggers in sch to go tog. then displayed my wonderful sense of direction by spending a good 20mins trying to find the place (in another building across the road which was supposedly a part of the country club too). haha. would have never reached had i not asked for directions. 

i figure i'm not a very sociable person. during parties and such i'm happy to just do the perfunctory catching-up conversations, then disappear into the backgrd and relax, and occasionally catching snippets of juicy info. happier still to find a person who seems content just to talk to me and doesn't flit ard like some social butterfly or behave like he/she would rather be somewhere else, with other pple, doing other stuff. i don't like the feeling of being dispensable. 

i can't complain abt today i guess. sitting with the very annoying (but endearing in a sense) xiaobai and my fave flagger Z (ha! i give u alphabet too!) who annoys me with her late sms replies. not to mention the diarrhoea-ing kenny and the always fun-loving gimsy. and the laugh-inducing comments abt the erm.. couple, kelthel. 

was gg to have a quick bowling session after the whole thing with sokie but then her parents were in the vicinity so settled on a few games at the arcade. then chatted all the way back on her parents' car. ha. i so need to study le la. 

quick post

a presentation at 3 later. 10% of the final grade for this purely experimental module, consisting of 6 lab reports, 6 vivas and a allocated presentation on one of the reports.

like i was telling the lab-in-charge whilst asking her abt info for the previous presentations on earlier timeslots, the difference btw a sublime and horrendous presentation would be like at most 4% of the total grade. which isn't much. the alphabet grade would have already been decided prior to one's presentation, we agreed.

i like physics labs. no need for lab coats, goggles or whatnot. i-net access, free printing and paper and a tranquil place to hang out in after tiring lessons. hell, there's even couches. of course it helps that there isn't much pple in physics in the 1st place, and one doesn't have much qualms simply ignoring 3/4 of the entire cohort (PRCs yup).

really enjoy peace, tranquility and the general sense of solitude. at least during sch term and esp during test/exam period. of course i enjoy the company of my dear fellow physics majors too. ha. you really have be around people, forced (same modules) or otherwise, long enough to know them well. and i should say i'm past caring abt how i portray myself when i'm ard them. they know too much abt me alr. my perpetual rubbish, slackness and general niceness (even towards certain nasty and annoying pple haha).

and hmm. long past thinking abt then alr. it wasn't like i didn't see it coming, albeit i din wish it to. but i always feel one should seek out their own happiness - why wallow in a state of discontent when u could move on to what u felt was better suited to you? i'm happy that u are. always been so. really. and if u understood me well enough u should know.

gg out with the glad fri evening and jas' 21st at sembawang (so far! sigh.) on sat evening. i'm gg to have to leave early myself i guess; the flaggers are likely cabbing back to hall tog and i want to go home. to study. ha. next sat's the 1st paper! hm or i could study overnight in school. see how la. but nowadays i'm keeping good hrs; sleeping at 1-2 and waking at 7-8. feeling good!