'last' paper tml

ok i'm 3 down, 3 to go. my last of 3 physics papers tml evening. so effectively i'll be damn free after that, cos the last 2 papers are oh so far away, not to mention they're my easiest/strongest modules respectively. if only tml's killer paper (QM!) could be interchanged with either one of them. 

ytd's Solid State Devices was alright, as expected. i mean, it's like a contest to make the most comprehensive cheatsheet and being able to utilise the hundreds of cryptic formulae to solve most of the problems. very engineering. sometimes i dun really see the point of taking these modules - once is fine to get the grasp of the skills required to do well but beyond that it's just diminishing returns all the way.

and today's Thin Film Technology (fave module, fave lecturer of all time!) was kinda of a disaster. to quote a random person whom i passed by in the exam hall: zhen1 de3 shi4 chi1 da4 bian4. thought it really very apt. did 3 past year papers for fun a week ago and found them very, very doable. by that i mean the effort marks per question averaged 15 for a total of 25 marks per qn.

[definition of effort marks: marks that can be secured if u have the notes/TB with you during an examination (closed-book) and you uds your material fairly well]

all the 4 qns available only had like.. 5 effort marks out of 25 each? or even less. definitely the most stingy out of all the chem/phy/engin modules i took in my entire academic career. oh and i wasn't the only one who felt that way. even jeff (mel: the one thing u can never say about jeff is that he's lazy or doesn't put in effort) found it a killer and ivana was her usual "dun know leh" or "ok lor". 

ok update more laters!

3 more days

ok i figure i have 2 papers on the 6th but given that i have 3 more papers in the next 3 days i have like 3 days to study for each of the last 2 papers. and the thing is that they're the 2 modules which require the least studying (i think 1 day for each is more than sufficient).

so i should be in hol mood after the last of 3 physics papers on wed evening. shall do the study by the pool regime and alternate swimming with reading my materials at a luxurious pace. should be able to clock 100 laps at the least per day, methinks. shall have to go below 70 before the end of exams before i resume my tennis and trg for IPPT. 

really feeling the strain on the knees even during normal walking, not to mention during impact sports. yeah i do lose weight to look better for my own sake. but it's mostly to be able to engage in the things i love w/o constantly worrying abt my knees collapsing all of a sudden. i don't ever want to experience that sensation ever again.

the colour and vision exam was horrendous. much, much harder than the tests and CAs.. so i can't figure where i stand in the cohort now. but i'm sure my 80th percentile for the 40% CA should guarantee me a decent grade despite the exam results. 

and damn the lecturer. punishing the pple who skip lectures by asking questions like: "we watched a video called 'at first sight' during lectures. describe what the video was about." this is so unfair given it has nothing to do with knowledge of the module itself. and there was a few questions similar to this. 

ohwells. as usual i put it all behind me when i stepped out of the exam hall. no point dwelling over something unchangeable and therefore inconsequential, esp when i have other pressing/pertinent concerns looming over the horizon. last sem le. let's finish it with a bang.

the question

i figure i'm a compulsive liar. 

after forgetting her b-day, i assured her that i had alr written her a card and picked up a gift for her, and had not wanted to meet her then cos i knew she was busy with projects. 

5 days later, on the day we were supposed to meet, i hurriedly wrote the card and rushed to JP to get the gift. 

met her for the b-day dinner at vivo. enjoyed the conversation throughout, as well as that at the outdoor pavilion whilst admiring the night scene and the view of Sentosa. the mood was set for the question, but i let it slip again, partly due to purposeful intent, partly due to nervousness. 

on the way back, after hesitating many times, i finally asked. but it wasn't the question i was thinking of asking before. after 10 long mths of supposed dating, i have to know, i felt.

"ehh. so are you attached now?" (or something of sorts)

sometimes i really do amuse myself with my lack of dating protocol and subtlety. shouldn't i have asked this much sooner. ohwells. at least i know she's single. and most likely available.

one thing abt her is that we have virtually no mutual friends (ok there's one, in my closest clique too and hopefully he din leak my blog add to her otherwise i'm dead) so it's harder to ascertain her r/s status. 

and i do require a long time to develop considerable, lasting interest in someone, lest it's obviously a close to perfect match coupled with sublime chemistry. 

there's a good reason why i'm stalling, and yes jack u hit the nail on the spot 1st time. i know myself only too well and circumstances (after graduation) may lead to adverse consequences should i alr be in a r/s then. i need more time. 

if taking my time leads to me losing what i have now, so be it. perhaps it just wasn't meant to be. let's simply let time tell - it never lies.

 

envious! haha.

from a friend's blog:

"we will sit under the sun and have our long promised picnic, stay under the velvety sky and star gaze, run to the beach and hit the volleyball, watch many bimbotic movies without the burden of project meetings, explore new places to feast, hold hands and flirt extensively with each other while walking along the streets of orchard road"

ok when will it be my turn to do all the above? not very long, i figure, if i finally get down to it. but the question is: will i pop the question? hahha. maybe. maybe not. let's just go with the flow.

april

"God didn't create the world in seven days... he slacked off for six and then pulled an all-nighter."

hahaha i think it's gg to take a miracle or lots of effort to do decently well. but at least it's not both for the moment i think. i think. hahaha.