stressed and down

for no clear reason i'm feeling really down at the moment. going to start school in 2 days and i haven't really prepared the necessary materials, and i feel really inadequate. also v unsure about whether i can handle the kids well, esp since i'm in the discipline comm now - have to set an example.

i guess it's cos i planned to go out w different friends over the thur-fri-sat-sun-mon break and have some exercise whilst preparing my work, and had it all thought out. then it all when awry when i received an sms from dad that my godpa had passed away. which also meant for our religion that i had to expend the next few days at sengkang and help out with the necessary rites.

and it's quite tiring i must say. and upsetting cos i really hate having my plans derailed, and i was really looking forward to meeting up those pple, spending quality time with the gf, and preparing for my work according to schedule.

and tml's the final day of the rites and i have to wake up early to go to sch to settle stuff before gg over at 9-10am. i'm worried that i have not prepared enough material to teach and i will not be able to handle some of my classes. i guess i worry unduly and i'll see for myself when it starts, but well i guess it happens to all.

i'll just have to do my best and look forward to tennis lessons with the gf at 8pm :) then likely an all-nighter before school starts. which is so different from my plan to sleep at latest 1am every night. ohwells, i'll start that next week :) hopefully.