you

was thinking back on the times we spent together back then, and i have to say it's been realli memorable indeed. the overnight chats, the late night suppers, the meaningful and trivial topics we discussed at length, the activities we partook in. despite the minor hiccup we encountered a while back, i have realli enjoyed every moment we spent together. nothing can realli explain the feeling i get when i'm in ur company; it's a tad of belonging, anticipation, longing, bliss, and comfort all in one. i believe they call it love.

know that amidst all the minor issues that occur once in a while, my feelings for you has never once abated since the day we got to know each other better, and particularly after entering into a relationship with you. you once mentioned the fact that you were in a way glad abt my tendency to think things through thoroughly before i took action, and i believe my choice then pertaining to you has never once proven me otherwise. i'm now much more definite abt my feelings towards you, especially after the self-imposed cooldown period we both agreed was necessary, and in which i thought at length about our relationship, its implications, the inherent differences between us and whether a long-term relationship was possible.

given my tendency to keep my deepest feelings to myself, believe me when i tell you that i have never felt so strongly about someone before you came into my life. and that especially after i've thought it over in the typically rational and thoughtful manner u're so accustomed to. trust me when i tell you i believe my feelings for you are real and justified and that my actions thereafter will show you the intensity of the emotions i have towards you. have faith in me when i give you my word that i'll always be there for you despite everything, that i love you for what you truly are, that i'd love to have the honour to take care of you for my entire lifetime.

i know that u have doubts over my being adequate to give you the love, care and concern you so deserve, and justly so, given my inexperience in handling certain issues. but do understand that i'm trying my utmost best to learn, to adapt, to change certain aspects of myself so as to allow myself to love you in a manner you expect and wish me to. i sincerely hope that one day, both of us will be able to revel in each other's company, fully content and satisfied with the love, passion, mutual understanding, and presence that a true relationship constitutes.

i love you, peilee.