aftermath

thank you for telling me everything.. i really appreciate it. in a way i was expecting all that just now. only that u did not wish to mention it, perhaps so as to spare me the expected hurt i guess. i see the differences as well as u do, esp the background and handling of situations, of which comes naturally, but i yet believe it is not totally impt for them to be similar for a r/ship to work out, the key being communication and mutual understanding.

as for the part abt my future, i know it is far from desirable. have thought abt it, esp after meeting you - admire the way you handle and have a clear understanding abt matters pertaining to daily life. have procrastinated thinking abt it for way too long, and cannot accept myself for it. my attitude has since changed and subsequent actions will be seen in the very near future, for my own good.

from all u've said.. i somewhat feel that everything that had happened has allowed us to know each other's feelings better, esp what you feel about me. i could feel your wanting to say what you said on certain occasions, but you held it back in consideration for my feelings and i appreciate your intention. also, i believe that after u said everything, it seems that both of us will not be able to make it in the long term. but, however cliqued and last-resort it may sound, give me a chance and some time to prove that i'm willing and able to improve, for myself and for our future. i'm not saying this out of desperation; do take note of it as a point for consideration.

should you wish to end it before giving me a chance to prove myself, i will definitely feel a deep sense of loss of what could have been, however, i will respect your decision. lastly, i cherish all the times we've spent thus far and the memories we shared, and hope that we can be the close friends we once were if things do not work out eventually; it isn't everyday that u meet someone whose company and conversation u so enjoy :)

i give you my assurance that i'll give you the space and time u need to make a decision without trying to affect it through my actions. after that, i sincerely hope that both of us can make a mature decision to sit down and have a open talk at the end, be it to end or continue the r/ship, to ensure closure such that there'll be no resentment or misunderstanding. promise me just that, peilee.


love,
liangwei