clarity of thought

the past few days have passed by at a rapid pace, but for different reasons. after the incident on Sun, I could do nothing more than simply sleep the day away despite my restlessness given my state of mind - it wasn't like i could do anything productive anyway and my mum would have been very worried if she saw me reading or playing games with a contemplative, downcast expression. imagine that :)

monday was alot better, in that i simply immersed myself in work other than the time i was chatting to you. albeit i did accompany a visibly depressed friend to fong seng and back to offer him a listening ear and some advice late night. the irony of it all, i thought then. was half-joking to one of my closest friends in hall thereafter about how it seems like a long-distance r/ship now, but on a serious note, i should say it was a good decision on your part.

not being able to see each other face-to-face allows the awkwardness from the dispute to assuage gradually and not be amplified, furthermore, i believe it allows us to see more clearly the differences between us. meeting up often would allow the sweetness felt during this so-called honeymoon period to cover up, albeit partially, what would lead to long-term repercussions in the future. i doubt that you would have told me what you felt abt me so soon had it all not happened, and in a way i'm glad for it as i am now more aware of your feelings, and am able to react accordingly in hope of a truly harmonious long-term relationship.

at the same time, i guess it will allow us to know whether our feelings for each other are genuine and strong. it will also help to slowly integrate us into the process of being one, by allowing us to resolve our other priorities in life and having more quality time for each other eventually, rather than spending too much time together and worrying about one's uncompleted tasks and jobs.

let's work hard together towards a scenario where when both of us are able to truly enjoy and revel in each other's company and love without residual worries of any kind, be it academic or job-related issues, and in which both parties respect and admire each other for who they are.