urgency

being in one's last sem in uni does take away the feeling of urgency until when it's quite late. even as i'm taking 6 mods (only need 3 to grad!). actually that was the cause, since i'm projecting a minimum grade of B+ for my 2 GEMs (little studying req to do well cos one is physics-bio, the other chem-bio and i'm essentially a physics/chem trained person) and NM mod given my results thus far, and my 2 engineering physics module shouldn't prove too much given i've always done ok for them. 

i'm more worried abt the damn QuanMech2 mod where i'm in danger of failing due to my high inertia to want to actually study it. did horribly for Test 1 relative to the cohort and i'm gg to have to change that soon. it really did wake me up, esp since failing this mod would render me ineligible to graduate (nightmare!). the possibility is always there, tho. hafta minimise it. 

but at least i'm in a serious mood now (eh it's damn rare one lor), only taking the occasional break to play mafia wars on fb, and the twice-weekly tennis and swim sessions. no longer plan for lunches or dinner with random pple as i need all the time i need, for work or significant others. and i'm seriously contemplating skipping a social gathering this weekend. 

i dun have a liking for grp outings btw, unless at least half the members are pple i'm fond of and comfortable with. the conversation is nothing to shout abt, and i normally meet those pple for the occasional meal anyways. 

get disoriented with all the conversations gg ard me and sometimes feel left out when the topic revolves ard smth they're involved and concerned abt and which i have little interest in. if i had the time, i dun really mind. but i don't.