return of the eve

was in a state of emotional turmoil when she called out of the blue, and i actually picked up the phone w/o hesistation, grateful for the short respite from my melancholy. and after 15 mins of conversation i discovered why it was that i tried to minimise contact with her a few mths back. 

interaction with others helps you to see yourself for who you are.

after talking like my bro does when he talks on the phone with his gfs, i got damn tired of speaking like a beng, not to mention the convo that was really meandering aimlessly. it slowly dawned on me that i still value a bit of intellectual conversation now and then, however much i appear to like touching on trivial and random topics. 

not like i din lead the discussion to issues which i felt strongly about, just that it's pointless to have to describe the underlying backgrd every time when it's like.. quite common news. if you haven't read or heard abt it alr, it's q impossible to sustain a meaningful rally of idea-exchanging unless you're intelligent and quick-thinking. i was quite miffed when she tried to paraphrase my ideas and go along with them or run antagonistic to my point of view just for the sake of appearing non-conformistic. 

really couldn't help but wince when she tried to make an effort to sound intelligent. well, she tried.

and due to a very bad reflex response on my part i have to sacrifice a few hrs of my precious study time to dine with her tml. her: hey u know we haven't seen each other for a long time. i changed my hairstyle alr u know! me: really? haha can't wait to see it. i'm sure you look even more stunning than b4. we should meet up for a meal soon! 

i blanked out for a few seconds, aghast at the words i just uttered. but oh wells, she's coming all the way from the east to JP which is like 10 mins from home. so it's not exactly inconvenient. ahhhh ok let's go back to studying.