work

beginning to lose focus once again after the mid-term break. i really can't afford to screw up any longer. every sem i tell myself to focus on studies; every sem i find something new to get distracted by. if it had somewhat been forced upon me i wouldn't have been that disappointed in myself. no. i chose to. or rather i was receptive to them.

but letting everything go now just doesn't seem right. it wouldn't be.