i'm back! reminiscing and contemplations and all.

i guess the months of inactivity has left me with nary a reader. ohwells maybe it's a blessing in disguise - more likely than not this has become a silent sanctuary in which to post my musings and thoughts without fear of alternate opinions.

for the first time in ages, i've had time to myself, and do not have to rush out work for the coming day. true, teaching has its perks such as flexi-hours and long holidays, but the peak period is any other period other than the hols. i'm not ashamed to say i work on most weekday evenings and weekends.

been sms-ing and fb-msging old friends which i suspect are turning into acquaintances. i've not been present in their lives much this year, and i deserve that, i guess. always believed that the extent one's birthday is celebrated by others is proportionate to the amount of effort and care shown to others.

i must say my birthday celebrations should be quite pathetic given my theory. with the exception of a few close friends and the old guy gang and the gf, i haven't been putting much effort into my friendships, choosing to focus on my career instead.

and on the subject of my career, I must say that no-one ever expected, me the least, that i'd be doing quite well right now. i may be new to the teaching profession, but my scholarship background and appointments in the school (leadership, discipline, UG) allow me to stand out, and also serve the purpose of galvanising myself against procrastination and indifference.

really, even I wouldn't have seen that myself a year back, being apprehensive to what the job entails. but i do laugh it off with friends who see me for what i was back then in school as a student - an optimistic, happy-go-lucky slacker. i can't deny that fact :)

thankfully it hasn't carried over to my job, which i am truly grateful for. it is one job that plays to my strengths and weaknesses and gives me great meaning in life. i never once minded doing extra in my free time or going the extra mile. if everything carries on as it is and i become the DM, it's only going to be an extra sacrifice on my part. the distinction in time/effort required as a normal teacher and a DM is huge, indeed, from what i observe.

i'm glad for all that has happened in my life thus far, the good times as well as the bad times. the latter has served to teach me life lessons, and strengthen myself as a person. i thank all the people that has been in my life, be it as a positive influence or a bane of my existence. all of you have made me into who i am today :)

it's another year, may the next year of my life be even better. (to my gf: i love you so much!) happy birthday to myself and may all you readers have a good day ahead.