fleety

linky was commenting that my blog entries were v emo, touching on f/s and r/s and such. and i retorted that i thought they were mostly happy entries describing my daily events and happenings, but that my friendster blog (from a few yrs back) does show up my v vulnerable side tho.

anyways i passed that blog add to belle cos i wanted to continue to talk abt her here w/o fear of reprisal (haha!). she actually read everything la. but i guess i'll be giving her this actual one soon so i shall have to refrain from bitching too much here. or maybe i shall. and simply edit/delete the incriminating posts then. hahaha.

hmm so far it's gg good.. but i'm of the opinion that one shouldn't allow feelings to overrule the rational side until after the 5th date (it's later, btw). afterall, u've got to see whether the personality and qualities she has are what u're looking for, and it's impt to judge objectively at times, esp given tt it's likely a long term thing this time.

of cos it doesn't necessarily guarantee success, just a higher chance of it occuring, but allowing feelings to just dictate the flow is too capricious an act i feel. no longer young le, cannot waste time testing and hoping for the best.

anyways i'm seriously considering joining SDU activities, of which they've been sending me notifications of events given that i'm a member (auto, cos graduate le). the courses are heavily subsidised and the one day events (road race, eating marathons, photography workshop) seem really fun and enriching.

another reason is tt i need new friends. too many friends are getting attached and leaving me less time. and some seemingly stayer-friends are also drifting away, slowly but surely. it's a sad thing. new activity partners would be great too, so i dun have to depend on the same few pple for certain stuff.

i'm sure it's not tt hard to find pple out there with the same vibe as me.