writer's block

it started with her adding me on fb and msn (which she seldom uses cos she's a nurse and works unearthly, unpredictable hrs). now's my turn to initiate contact, i felt.

and the thought triggered an all-pervading sense of dread.

after all, i never did venture in the area of knowing random girls thru online means. always knew the individual thru activities or courses - begun with good vibes even b4 the initial online/phone contact.

after procrastinating for several days, i finally got down to it and sent her a msg on facebook. trust me, it was a nerve-wracking experience. nth i've been prepping myself for during the past few years really helped in the process.

so i cybersta.. erm, got better acquainted with her online persona thru fb and the such, in preparation for the msg. i then clicked on the "Send Annabelle a Message". after which i closed the popup window in fear and trepidation.

after mustering enough courage, i wrote some stuff. then deleted it. and the cycle repeated itself:

too eager-to-please.

too cheesy.

too typical.

too nonchalant.

too self-depreciating

too narcissistic.

too "insert negative connotation"

after drafting a decent-looking copy (30mins!), i looked over it thoroughly, more for the tone than the grammar (her english isn't too wonderful anyways). ok sounds good! either way it's better than doing nth right. and i can always salvage it thru msn.

furthermore my photogenic photos (lol!) on fb will help prevent her from thinking i'm single and desperate lol. former yes, latter definitely not. my career's more impt to me at the moment.

ok we shall see the results of my writing soon. i shall try not to be devastated in the case of a non-reply or a disinterested, short one.